Barely Held Together

I'm just going to get right into it. I like my job and I enjoy working with everyone in my department which both are important if you don't want to be at work all day only wishing you were at home. Today at work I have finally seen the unveiling truth about the workplace.

Let's just say I still like my job. . .

I have been so naive. Why have I denied for so long that people are not backstabbing, smile in your face, pretentious tyrants? I must have been living in a fantasy world where people go to work and actually have people in leadership positions because they know how to lead. In this world you also smile at your co-workers because you're happy to see them and not because you gotta show "face" and play the "game" they call brown-nose.

Someone please run my blood through a freezer to lower it down from boiling point because I'm trying to understand what would drive a person to accuse you of some things just to cover their own butt. Don't bother correcting them, even in the nicest way or you'll just get the 'gameface' look and the gators will come out to eat you later.

My friends (Christian friends) say, "it really shouldn't be that way, but it is," and another commented "haha, you are still just a puppy Christopher." Well, what does this all mean? Because I have no problem doing what I'm asked to do by the boss. But, when the boss wants to jump into the department which they don't know the first thing about, I'm suppose to shut my mouth and play by the new rules? What happened to me getting a say? I guess democracy doesn't fall far from the tree.

Okay so my conclusion is I'm just going to go to work, do my job, smile even if it's not how I feel, make small talk that earns me bonuses, and eat crap to keep the flies away!

..I still like my job. And the people I work with, but please Lord don't let me say what I really want to say, because I will regret it later.

Or maybe I can just find a way to say, "why don't you let the people that actually do the job select a leader to decide what would benefit the department and customer care," ..in love.

okay, CMZ out.